Twenty Years of Practice: Expansion & Growth

You are reading the third installment of my blog series on celebrating twenty years of practice as a professional counselor. In my third act, I begin the process of starting my private practice. By May 2014, I had opened up my practice after seeing the need to make more money, primarily due to being in a long-term committed relationship and becoming a stepparent. I wanted to ensure I could financially provide, and I saw my earning potential as a trauma therapist. I also began to explore other interventions for trauma after getting stuck again with some clients who had complex trauma linked back to early developmental years. 

In this exploration for more professional experience in treating developmental trauma, I had also undergone a miscarriage. This experience led me back to therapy to process the loss. It also allowed me to start taking steps to heal my physical health after the miscarriage diagnosed polycystic ovarian syndrome (PCOS) as the cause. During this round of therapy, I was the recipient of neurofeedback to help with some of my trauma symptoms. Neurofeedback seemed to have great potential to help people reduce symptoms of PTSD and help regulate the nervous system. I decided to add neurofeedback to my new private practice, which allowed for more referrals and clients. 

After neurofeedback, I became curious about adding more tools to offer clients in my practice. I was also becoming more open to making my practice online and offering personal and professional coaching. A colleague invited me to a women's entrepreneur Facebook group, many of whom were trained therapists looking to add coaching or other online services. Many of them became successful, inspiring me to hire my first business coach and see a certified hypnotist. My curiosity around hypnosis came from seeing how many of my clients seemed stuck in therapy due to their defenses that seemed out of their control to change. I wondered if offering hypnosis would help clients overcome resistance and be open to more healing and wholeness. After being a hypnosis client, I began seeing how my thinking was holding me back from success and happiness. I became a certified hypnotist to learn how to encourage clients to relax and free themselves from the mental chains that were preventing their healing. 

Amid business coaching and hypnosis, I began to see my curiosity about spirituality broaden. Many of the women I encountered in my business coaching programs were spiritual, and I was open to exploring all different forms of expression. With my exposure to how changing thinking can become a spiritual practice in hypnosis, I attended some retreats led by my business coach. These experiences helped me have more positive experiences with women in a receptive and supportive setting. Professionally, I took another leap of faith and began training to become a remote energy worker with ThetaHealing. This empowering method was another example of how women modeled a positive experience around healing and recovery.

These experiences built more foundations to become a remote therapist and coach. The professional tools I accumulated also allowed me to attract my ideal clients more efficiently and effectively. As my practice grew, I was able to let go of many of the insurance companies that were paying far below the national average. I was healing my physical and mental health by learning more about how our bodies carry the burden of chronic stress and trauma. But with all my privilege and help, I felt blocked in my ability to receive and give love. It was time to level up again. Next time, I will embark on my final chapter that is still being written.

Inner Work: A Primer

“The Voice is fully operative in most of us by the time we are four years old, after which it functions as a moral compass, a deterrent to questionable behavior. Instead of being afraid of the disapproval of our parents, we become afraid of the disapproval of The Voice. Instead of being punished for daring to disagree with our mothers or fathers, we adults punish ourselves for daring to believe that our lives could be different. We become risk aversive. Frightened of change.”

— Geneen Roth

If you have been hanging out in self-improvement circles for awhile you may know the phrase “inner work.”

I define the practice as anything that allows for reflection of yourself and all parts of yourself, for the purpose of self-discovery, self-healing, and self-love.

The majority of the tools I use in therapy and coaching are inner work tools. EMDR requires that the client reflect on their feelings, internal images and body sensations while processing traumatic memories. Hypnosis requires a letting go of regular conscious thought, to observe what the subconscious mind is saying. Meditation is similar to hypnosis, with many goals depending on your intention for your practice. Energy work and astrology also have elements of inner work: noticing your inner body sensations for healing, or noticing your inner reactions during an important astrological event.

Having the self-awareness to do inner work is the first step. Here are a few ways to gain more self-awareness on your inner journey:

1. Spend quiet time alone: Without any distractions like a phone, screen or book, begin to notice yourself in a quiet space. You may opt to go for a walk outside to begin this practice. Begin to notice any thoughts or emotions bubbling up as you begin. See what these voices have to say, without judging or criticizing them. Geneen Roth calls the judging part, The Voice: “The Voice is fully operative in most of us by the time we are four years old, after which it functions as a moral compass, a deterrent to questionable behavior. Instead of being afraid of the disapproval of our parents, we become afraid of the disapproval of The Voice. Instead of being punished for daring to disagree with our mothers or fathers, we adults punish ourselves for daring to believe that our lives could be different. We become risk aversive. Frightened of change.”

2. Become a curious observer: As you begin to spend more and more time by yourself, you may become restless or uneasy with the thoughts or sensations coming up. Roth’s quote speaks to what happens when we are unconsciously listening to The Voice--we become critical and fearful. The opposite of fear is curiosity, a genuine interest in what is happening. An interest that could lead to more understanding of ourselves. How could you become curious about the sensations in your body as  you are taking that walk outside? How could you become curious about the voice that seems to be so hard on you?

3. Hire a professional: Once we realize that there is a whole inner dialogue we can engage within ourselves, it may be time to talk to someone. Having a facilitator to listen to what is going on inside of us can be beneficial for several reasons including: having an objective person who is supportive, having someone who shares our values of personal growth, and having someone who is further in their path to help guide us. This could be a therapist, coach, healer or astrologer. I’ve hired all four of these professionals, and each experience has helped me grow.

How have you begun this inner work journey? What experiences can you share to help others? I will be deep-diving into some inner work next weekend as a participate in my first 3-day silent retreat! I will be writing about my experience to share in a few weeks! If you’d like to see how to start your inner work journey, you can fill out an application to work with me here.